life on the obverse

i’ve decided that i’m going to implement the first phase of my plan, which will be that i’m not going to be on AIM for the next week (or so). I’m curious about whether I can remove it from my life or not.

I want to see whether emily will say anything to me, whether [...]

it works, because i realized that i was being something that i truly am not. i was letting my emotions control me, and we all know that chris heckman is not a man controlled by his heart, but by his head.

i have thusly retaken control of my fate and now things are as they [...]

i was just looking back on my history for the past two years or so and realized i am just about the luckiest man in the world. no exaggeration. i mean there are times where i am also the unluckiest. definitely that sounds like a paradox but it’s totally true. why? [...]

i have such poor temperament… i let things get to me that shouldn’t, and then realize that i was being dumb and then feel better once i have been slightly proven wrong when thinking pessimistically. i often tell my friends seeking advice that people aren’t constant and their actions always reflect what mood they [...]

tell you what, i won’t let the good times get me to feel good anymore. because in just a second things will turn around: so quickly i’ll be feeling shitty that they’re changed. and i’ll be more vulnerable than i was before; it’s a vicious cycle, and i’m the only one that’s gonna [...]